I was so excited when I heard about the meteor shower from my friend Mellophone today. I told Euphonium right away. He was thrilled and asked about the time. I told him 11 pm as Mellophone had told me. He was going to drive me out to a dark trailer park so we could watch with some friends. I heard later that Mello had gotten the time wrong (time zones) and it wouldn't be until 2 am. Euph didn't feel like staying up that late... and frankly, neither did I... but...
WHY is it that we can never make plans? Every time one of us has free time, the other is busy. I feel like I'm making a bit more effort than he is, but I think I'm just being hard on myself. When I got us tickets to the symphony, he told me at the last minute that he had to edit music. Every time I ask him to go get food, he has work to do. When he asks me to do something, I have work, am dog tired, etc ETC ETC!!!!!
I hate this. It hurts and I'm sick of it.
It seems like anything we try to do together fails miserably. He is talking about taking me to Canada, but I don't even want to get my hopes up to go just because it seems like it will inevitably fail. I just want to spend time with my Euphonium. I just always end up disappointed.
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